Thursday, July 28, 2005
Enjoying some champagna at the summit. Look at that view!! I love Tahoe!!
All I Want
I have less than a week still at my real job, then a month of vacation. I like my fake job better. At least I feel accomplished after a day of shoveling shit. I have something to show for it. Even if they crap in thier stalls right after you finish. Horses are easier than humans. You can quote me on that.
I will admit that the hardent person/human to deal with is yourself. Today, I'm fighting off self-hatred with a sword of excapeism. Curled up at my boyfriend's sonic wall free computer in his bathrobe I have advoided real life for a couple more hours.
As an excerise to inocculate some normalcy in the issues swimming in my head, I have created a list. An "All I Want", Joni Mitchell is one of the greatest songwrites ever inspired, list.
All I Want is....
My Mom to have a conversation with me and only me on the phone
My sister's broken heart to heal
My dog to learn how to play dead
To hug my little brother
To shop at grocery store where I never have to read the labels
My stomach/head/heart to stop hurting
To be curled up with my man in bed for 3 days straight
Tahoe to have an array of take out/delivery places
To see my ex and it not be werid
Fishy to stop having to deal with stupid people
My employer to stop hiring stupid people
Have energy to live my life
To stop surviving
To spend all day reading
To feel like I have a choice
Twenty Days and Twenty Nights
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
I has been almost twenty days since I blogged. This is not healthy. I have no outlet and I feel out of touch. This past weekend I attended my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary. Yes, that is a frickin' long time. Besides the horrible food, wedding singer music and a blood sugar number of 25 ( my grandfathers not mine), everthing was great. I spent quality time (talking) and not so quality time (drinking) with the siblings. My dad has finally gotten his shit together and realizes that he fucked up. I think he has also realized thathe is luckiest man on earth because his offspring still talk to him and are functional adults. He wants me to get my PhD...in Traditional Chinese Medicine. It is amazing what parental encouragement can do for your self-esteem. Thousand of picture have been taken of this event, they will be posted soon. For now the countdown is on until my next vacation to Michigan. I can do it.....
My Week in Bullets
Thursday, July 07, 2005
I would like to apologize for not keeping up with my Blog. My last installment was more tha a week ago. I would like to think that I am very popular and have thousands of people hanging on my every word. Not true, I know. But if I can't have a sense of graduer about my life who can? So, what has kept me so busy the last week(s)? Here's a rundown:
--My sister leaving the Reno/Tahoe area. It's hard to believe that I miss someone so very different than myself.
--Finalizing my plans to Arkansas. No one goes there by mistake, believe me. My grandparents 50th wedding anniversary.
--Unpacking all of my stuff. Not having to move this week was a sure bonus.
--Cingular is evil. The triangle of hell has been completed. Insurance companies, pharmaceutical companies and celluar phone companies. Armegeddon is near.
--Reinstating my self control. The demise of previously mentioned co-worker has been plotted many times. Many times. So hard not to go through with it. I can't stand her and I don't know why.
--Busting two kids at school for smoking pot in thier bathroom. Schwag does not smell good. I did not get to confiscate for personal use. Damn. The drug test was the best part. Oooo....urine. I do get a $20 bonus for every one I give. This may change my personal feelings about random drug testing. I also had to miss "Bewitched". Yes, I can be that shallow.
--Falling in love. The less I say about this the better. Let's just say it wasn't ever planned and I now know how Charlotte felt.
--Watching my rat of a dog swim in Lake Tahoe. Yes, that would make her a wet rat.
--Working 70 hours a week. So much bank and no time to spend it. An excellent combination. I would like some more sleep though.
--Spending the Fourth in Study Hall. Oh, yes the glamor of Study Hall. I can actually fudge my way through Algebra. Take that Mr. Samuel!!
I thoes are most of the highlights. I'll will be back on a regular basis soon. I might even have a telephone. Peace.
